First, let me start by saying dieting is bullshit. I love food and I like to eat. However, I also have always been a very thin woman. I was 110lbs when I got married in 2006 so naturally when I was pregnant with my daughter, I figured I could eat the whole house and not gain a pound. Uh, not true. I gained almost 70 lbs and because eating healthy and exercising were things I did not understand, it was hard for my body to bounce back. Two months at the gym changed that and at 135lbs, I still wasn’t at my pre-birth weight but I looked better than ever. With my second, I embarked on a clean eating journey towards the end that helped me bounced back almost a week later and when E was just two months, I was 125 lbs. Baby M brought on a few old bad eating habits and after slowly losing the weight, my father’s passing helped me find passion in tubs of ice cream and 10 lbs. Now, let me add that I do not need to lose weight. I’m curvier, a bit soft in the middle, but that’s not a bad thing. At 5’8″ and 150 lbs, I’m the size of a fabulous woman. But I do need to eat better. The pizza, the ice cream, the sweets are getting out of hand. My emotional eating has spiraled so out of control that it is causing headaches, dizziness, irritability, exhaustion, lack or energy and a serious creative block. For a mom of three, no bueno. So instead of a diet, since I’m not here for that yo-yo type life, I’m focusing on eating better and doing better to simply be better. It isn’t about a number on the scale. They all look the same on my body anyhow.
In a little less than a month, I will be 32 and I cannot start another year of my life letting old habit resurface. Of those, I have plenty and I need not one. So yes to more water, to fresh food from the farmer’s market, to less meats and more greens, to long walks, to stretching, to great coffee in the morning (sans milk) and soothing teas at night, to not looking at the scale, to actually sleeping 8 hours, to disconnecting more and actually reading things that matter because my health matters.
I write this as I enjoy a nice lunch of roasted sweet peppers and onion tacos, drizzled in avocado salsa. Here’s to good living.